Tomorrow

Tomorrow will be the last day of this year. Around these days, i have surf my friends' web site and found out that many of them wrote about the summary from stepping into this year to approaching the end of this year. Like many of my friends, it is undeniable that this year 2003 is really meaningful and memorable, because ...
I choosed the right course, architecture...
I met many nice friends...
I really enjoyed and worked hard for the course...
I went to China for the first time...
I...
Too much to recall back...
Anywhere, compared to the past, i don't recall back too much to the "history of a year". This fact is neutral, it is not negative nor positive. Just think that maybe i have changed a bit and maybe grow "older". I am not so "looking back to the past" as i used to be. I felt that i am "stronger" and resolute than before, no more too much hesitation...

Today, i heard a news about the death of a Hong Kong singer/actress. This year is really bad for Chinese entertainment field. Anywhere, honestly, i don't feel sad about this, maybe because they are "stranger" to me. But, i felt a bit "sigh"... like that...

There is still too much tomorrow to go on. Still, we have to look forward. Still, we have to step forward without standing too long in origin or the shadow of past. I am actually a person who always like to recall back the past and stay in the past. Is it all merely about useless imagination for the past. Or, i always feel heavy to leave something, somewhere, someone or sometime that has been in my memory. A song by Yan Zi's "kite" tells about "let go... let a kite go...". Yup, i think i have to learn how to let go sometimes. I wonder why this world is so realistic...

I am back!

Hi, i am back. I was home last two days at night. I came back from China.

The trip to China brought me to Guilin, Li Pu, Guang Zhou, Foshan, Shen Zhen and Hong Kong. It was really a memorable, meaningful, wonderful and almost perfect travel to China. The weather around Guilin was a bit wet and very cold (2~11 celcius degree), the temperature went higher and dry while we were moving towards east south to Foshan, Guang Zhou and Hong Kong.

It is hard to describe my experience in China by words. I have perceived a lot. So, i summarised my tour below.

Guilin. It is a beautiful place which is a fusion of the amazing sceneries of mountains and rivers, the simple and comfortable life as well as the easy-going residents there. They do not have a lot of desire and eagerness to earn money, and their life is simple, relax and happy which has less stress or pressure. We had wonderful experience in visiting many places there, like Li Jiang river, Xiang Bi mountain, Yin Zi Limestone Cave, Li Pu, etc (too many). The mountains in Guilin are different with those in Malaysia. The mountains there are small and independent, standing seperately like they have their own attraction. Visiting those limestone caves and mountains, you will SEE MORE if you launch your imagination. Those mountains and limestones always shape like somethings and there always lie the history or myths behind. You will be surprised by the mother nature power ^_^ . Another one place in Guilin i want to introduce here is Dream Like Li Jiang (a new chinese ballet circus). It was a really nice and worth show which is regarded international level. Besides, i met a nice girl in Guilin, but i think it is hard to keep in contact for some reasons.


Foshan. After travelling around Guilin, we reached in Guang Zhou and our relative fetched us to Foshan. We met our relatives and their enthusiastic treat really made us enjoyed ourselves very much. We felt closer after we met. Yup, like chinese words, "we are in one family". They brought us to many historical and tourist places, and then my parents bought a lot of present (for relatives in M'sia) which are worth and cheap because those sellers there dare not to cheat us as our relatives were accompanying us. ^_^ If you have watched HK movie "wong fei hong", then you should know Foshan.


Hong Kong. There, i really saw the big difference between HK and Guilin. The pace of life in HK is very fast and rapid. It was obviusly shown while i was taking accelerator. HK people keep on rushing while they are taking accelerator... oh god. Anywhere, we had a nice experience in HK because we saw the scenery of HK by taking boat in evening, going onto the mountain at night by peak tram, and enjoyed the one night before C'mas (HK people celebrate C'mas "exaggeratedly"). ^_^ sorry, if i offend Christian. Besides, many people like to go shopping in HK. But, i do not. Maybe because i am not so enjoying shopping, but i buy some clothes which i think nice occasionally.

These few days

It has been quite a long time... Don't know why, felt lazy to blog. Really don't know why... Maybe i am(in hometown with family) not so lonely compared to living and studying in Subang, so i didn't have strong willing to drop message here. Maybe... i am going to give up blogging...

7th Dec(Sun)
I went back to Subang with my family. Before that, we went to Times Square and then Sunway Pyramid to have fun. That day was really a good day. It was a special day because it was the first time i went to the cosmos theme park in Times Square and also the first time skating in Sunway Pyramid . Guess what... My first record of skating is nice... I didn't fall down and i could skate 1 round perimeter without relying and holding to the perimeter wall. I went back to Subang at night after having dinner with my family in S.Pyramid. It was a tired but happy day.

8th Dec(Mon)
I went to my friend's house in Cheras to attend a gathering which was held for secondary school friends (who are same class last year). hmm... honestly, i felt a bit bored that day... i just chatted mostly with a few friends... about the others, i didn't have topic to chat with (i am also a guy who is poor in having communication with others, sigh)... i met some another friends and felt the desire to chat with them, but i didn't because i didn't know what to talk... sigh... Sometimes, i prefer silence. But, most of the people like being together, chatting, etc. I know i should learn some skill of communicating, but i think i still prefer silence. Because ..it's me? About this, i felt struggling in hesitation... Too much hesitation brings regrets. But, i am a guy like that -_-''' Besides, i didn't take any photo by using my camera though i brought my camera along. A bit regret, and also don't know why i didn't take any photo.
After the gathering, i joined my very good friends Kiat and Sze Liang to spent one night at Sze Liang's house. It was more meaningful compared to spend one night in Subang where my friends were all back to hometown. I met Sze Liang's mother, and i would like to meet her again because she is very nice. I felt a bit warm compared to "cold Subang". That night, 3 of us chatted for quite a long time. Just hope to spend more time with my good friends ^_^

9th Dec(Tue)
I stayed in Subang. Dxmn boring... nothing to do, just kept some things in Subang house because i moved to upper floor. Feeling strong eagerness to go back to hometown.

10th Dec(Wed)
I went to Jalan Ipoh, KL to meet my secondary school friends. We met in Mutiara Complex and planned what to do there. Jalan Ipoh is quite familiar to me because Chong Hwa Independent High School is located there. Life in Chong Hwa takes a lot of space in my memory. We went playing pc game in the cyber cafe around there. Playing game in cyber cafe can be said to be a communication tool since 2,3 years ago. At night, we went to Kepong to meet another friend. We went to play snooker after having dinner. It was the first time i really play snooker. I have learnt some skill ^_^ . Quite enjoyable.

11th Dec(Thurs)
I called 2 Chong Hwa hostel's friends to Subang because we didnt meet long time. I went to main campus to look for whether result is out or not. The result has not been pasted on the board. So, i went to Studio E to collect my models. And then we went to cyber cafe (again ^_^'''). I went back to hometown in the evening. Before going back, my family and i went to Mid Valley. While having dinner in Pizza Hut, i saw a foreign teen girl with golden hair having her dinner alone. Observing her from her back, i think she felt a bit lonely. She is not very pretty, but quite cute. She ordered food... waiting for food... looking around while waiting... etc. I really thought that she feels lonely sometimes. I wonder why she was there, alone. Then i fel curious about her and felt want to chat with her. But, i didn't. Anywhere, for me, she is just a stranger, but a stranger who made me observed and thought so much. And then, we went back to hometown. Har..i felt so good in home. ^_^

These are the four days i left my hometown during this holiday. Of course, i am sure that what i typed may be boring for some people. I don't give myself a range that what i should post, what is more "welcome", what is important, etc. I just posted what i want to post. Anywhere, it is less attractive without any photo.

Xi~n Ni~an

It had been quite a long time i did not drop a message here since my long vacation began.

During recent days, my life is simple. There are neither a lot of dramatic Ups and Downs, nor extremes during these days. For me, it is nice, because i am enjoying a HOLIDAY. I am resting, in mind, plans and actions. This is time for me to recharge energy. My energy has almost run dry while approaching the end of the semester. Now, my life is zero-context, but it is not pure zero. And, i am not going to add too much strong colour into my life for this holiday. It has already certain colours that are warm, soft, natural and comfortable. It is nature of nature ^_^

Yesterday, i found a blank paper with only a few sentences on it. I have almost forgotten and abandon the sentences in the practice of my life.

If you are not the Sun, just be a star;
if you are not a highway, just be a path;
measurement does not decide success,
but you are being urself- the best of yourself.

I have told this sentences to some of my friends long time ago. But, i (myself) almost forgot my belief. I watched a Japanese drama- "kiss? or fight?" these few days. Or, the title of the drama can be translated to be "beauty and the beast". The drama is about production of news. It is meaningful and very nice. The whole drama is abound in beliefs of life, and love connects the whole drama. About love, it is not epidermic shown, and not too much, i felt touched. So, there is only a kiss at the end of the drama. Nice drama, nice holiday. It was such coincident as i saw the sentences after i had watched the drama. Both are about belief. Don't lost yourself in chaos.