Finding Yi Kai

What is the mission of this holiday?
i had been thinking of finding a job a period of time before. But now, i have a mission of this holiday------ finding back Yi Kai.

This semester almost goes off, there is just one last final paper left in mid June. During these few months, i tried to adapt to the new environment here and cope with the studies system here. Apparently, i was not doing good, due to many reasons.
I was scared, because my family paid so much for all of these and i should do my best. There are too much 'unknown' around me.
I was worried, because i couldnt find the right 'pace' and 'manner' of studies here. I always predict the wrong things, or maybe, i predict too much. Reality is always sarcastically unpredictable.
I was lonely. I felt losing my old friends. My hectic life made me seldom contact with them. I felt so empty and i was so eager to get a hug, especially during the toughest period in rushing the final submission.
I was introvert, because i was too unfamiliar with all around me, and also due to my ability to communicate in English.

During this few months, i did badly in my Architectural Design Studio subject, with lack of creativity and passion, with persistence of ego that i thought somewhat that shouldn't be is. I couldn't see my shadow though i was under the sun. I was lost.

What should i do during this holiday? Find back myself.