I am terrible

Talking to Andy just now, more and more recall of ME in the past came to mind. I am totally a bad guy. If my friend treats me as a friend, then i am totally a bad friend to be with. If my friend doesn't treat me as a friend, then it is another case.

Thinking back of what i have done for my friends... I feel ashame.. regrettable...

I always release my stress on my friends, especially thos who are close to me. They are so innocent.
I am so selfish. I am so subjective, with some effort trying to "change" my friend. I am so stubborn sometimes. I am so easily being blind because of sudden dissatisfication or anger. I want to rest more rather than willing to help my friends if i have finished my works. I don't remember my friends' birthday. I am arrogant. I am desperate. I am lack of understanding on my friends. I have so much bad temper. ...etc. too much...

Sorry, guys. In faith, sorry.

What can i do? I will try hard to be a good man, a good friend, a good brother, a good son... Give me some time.