Sad

Today, sad, dissapointed, mad (a bit). I got grade C for the previous project of design studio subject. It is the first time i got C in design studio since the first semester. I am going through this semester 'terribly'.

I put quite a lot of effort in making the model. Maybe it doesn't express well... Maybe i broke too much "rule"... Maybe... Sigh... it really dropped me in contradiction in between "expressing what i want to tell" and "suiting the taste of lecturer". Well, maybe it can be said that lecturer is my "client" if i am an architect, so i have to suit him. !!??..!? It may be the problem of myself. Honestly, i don't think mine is bad. Whatever ...

Though it is just a small case, it affected my "firmly-standing" confidence and my belief of design. Sometimes, i am stubborn. I express only what i want to show and tell. Maybe i have to look for the balance IN BETWEEN.