Worry of the beginning

There is still one more week to go on for holiday before school open day. I wonder why Taylor's College authority made the choice to let us study one week and then go back to enjoy Chinese New Year.

Recently, i feel quite worry and anxious for my "coming study future" because i have done nothing relevant for my study field, like reading some architecture books, sketching, practising autocad, etc. Ohhh......... can i follow on the course when school open? Still, i am doing nothing about architecture field, unlike my friend dave, although i am quite free recently. The only best way to console me myself is that i don't need to wory so much because i am now "living" my life; for me, architecture exist because of "living", it is manipulated by human to suit life. So, i am touching architecture as i am living!?? This is the only "alasan" to "protect" myself ^_^. Or, i am trying to cheat myself. Honestly, i am quite lazy lar... -_-''' Compared to Dave, he uses his time so meaningful and effective to achieve his goal, seems like he is manipulating time to reach waste-zero. He becomes my "study model". ^_^

I am also quite "rubbish" for not doing something beneficial or meaningful. The best memory during my long vacation is the trip to China. Arghh... sometimes i blame myself why i have wasted so much time.

Now, i am waiting for something, something which is not so important, but something which i care so much. Can't imagine? Love, for instance, is like that something. Sigh... Besides, i have totally lost contact with the new friend i met in China.