Think of someone

Now is 2:42 am. I supposed to be sleeping at this time after long time working on studio project. I was tired and finished all the drawings of studio project about one hour ago. But now, I am still in front of the computer, not that I am addicted to computer nor online. Just because I can’t sleep.

There is raining outside, again. I think of someone, again.

Thinking of someone, is really an inevitable ‘element’ of life. It is not categorized as negative nor positive habit. It can be both at once. I don’t hate/ dislike the feeling of thinking someone because I always do this. Actually, I quite enjoy this feeling. Why I enjoy thinking of someone? I don’t know the correct answer. I think… Maybe because I have ‘feeling’ on that someone, maybe I have the strong desire to see that someone, maybe that someone is so impressive, maybe I owe that someone something in life, maybe that someone is one of the parts that cant be separated in my life, etc. Or, it is because of all the answers above!? It is a good question for me myself.

Actually I am becoming enjoying the feel of thinking someone. I think it is because I am now living alone in Subang and sometimes feel lonely. So, in stead of placing myself in alone and feeling lonely, I will make the illusion that someone is accompanying me mentally while I am thinking of that someone. Further, I don’t ‘make illusion’ actually, but it ‘comes’ to me. In other words, it is so natural for me to think of that someone.

For me, thinking of someone, is a feeling-mind-working-cycle (I don’t know a suitable word in English to illustrate my thinking). I said it as a cycle because thinking of someone can not exist the whole time, it may stay, fade, disappear and reborn. That is the reason that I sometimes/ suddenly think of that someone so strongly, want to talk to her so eagerly, and hope to see her so desperately. It is the power of thinking someone. ‘Refer to the source’, it is the power of relationship/ link between human beings.

Sometimes… Just regret that I didn’t spend more/ ‘enough’ time with that someone. But I always say to people: do not wait to be regret. So, instead of feeling regret, I think of something positively from the lesson. ^_^

-the end- 3:10am
(sigh… tomorrow how to wake up!!?? Pimples grow some more!!??